Posted in Diary of a Nervous Girl

I Can’t Breathe: #talkingaboutit

Drowning on Dry Land
Putting my feelings into words rather than hiding them away… 

I haven’t been stable lately, my illness is usually a string of good days followed by a much longer string of bad days. I spent my holidays dealing with the chaos of hypermania which is followed by the sudden extreme crash into depression and anxiety so bad I couldn’t get out of bed this morning. My illness means I’m afraid of everything and everything can be a trigger. I don’t have safe spaces where I feel at ease, I don’t even know what it feels like to be at ease, I’m constantly on edge… It’s exhausting. 

I spent 2 1/2 hours in a persistent panic attack, crying in a dark room, wondering if my existence was a burden because I can’t function as a normal person. I couldn’t talk to anyone except my closest friend because I felt like it was wrong to ask others for help when I’m not coping. I’m not saying any of this for sympathy, I don’t need that. I just want to be honest and less afraid of living my mess of a life, and feel like it’s okay to talk about my illness the same way someone else might talk about physical illness. 

#talkingaboutit #mentalhealth #endthestigma #depression #anxiety #notokay



Hi! My name is Kerry-Mae, and I live near Manchester, UK. I mostly post on my Diary of a Nervous Girl personal blog, although I have another creative blog called Wicked Lovely Creations. Almost everything I post currently is related to a personal journey through mental illness, having lived with severe anxiety disorder from early childhood.

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